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April Hartman
April Hartman
Vocals
COMPOSITION & LYRICS
April Hartman
April Hartman
Songwriter
PRODUCTION & ENGINEERING
Daniel Ebersole
Daniel Ebersole
Producer

Lyrics

I'm always the strong friend
Nobody asks how I'm doing
And some of my old friends
Changed so much that I don't recognize them
We were best friends when we were young
So why'd you have to go and become a cop?
I thought I knew you
Thought I knew all of us
Guess all the nights spent drinking in my backyard
Felt better than being alone like
When I was a kid on the schoolyard
But now I'm getting older
Starting to realize that the people that I thought were my friends
Were just people I was forced to be around
And now when I don't really have to be anywhere
I barely ever leave my house
Cause I was always a weird kid
Got good at playing pretend
Grew up and nothing is different
I just have lots of weird friends
And I love every one of you I don't say it enough
And I'm proud of all the things you do and what we've overcome
I'm always the strong friend
And I feel like I'm breaking
I've been having trouble sleeping
At night my thoughts start screaming
There's so many things wrong and I feel like
There's nothing I can do to fix it
I wanna have kids someday but I'm scared of the world
That we are leaving for them
And maybe I'm just freaking out about the little things
And it will all work out but I can't help but feel like
If I wanna build the future that I wanna see time is running out and I
Can't keep blaming people from my past for where I am right now
So I ain't mad at my parents they were just trying their best
Nobody knows what they're doing
We're all just sick of this
And I'm not mad at society it's only what we make it
So I hope we're taking steps today to tear it down to pieces
And I feel like all these little things
They might add up to something big
I think we're onto something
Yeah I think we're onto something
Yeah I feel like all these little things
They might add up to something big
And if we pick up all the pieces we can rebuild something different
Better than what we were given
Shout out to my friends who give me hope
On the days I dont want this for myself
I wouldn't be here without your help
And all the ones who got off this ride before it was your time
You give me the inspiration to make the best of what is left of mine
And to Bernard cause you're the one who told me
You changed your life through music
And to Nick cause you're the one who gave me the confidence to do it
And to Ashley cause I know that you would love this song
Pittsburgh will never be the same without you there singing along
And to Denis cause not a day goes by man that I'm not thinking of ya
And to my mom because you never even got to see me grow up
And to my friends who are here with me
I'm not saying let's take life seriously
But I'm serious about you staying alive
Cause I wanna grow old with all of you and never grow up
I wanna leave the world a better place than it was for us
Oh I wanna grow old with all of you and never grow up
I wanna leave the world a better place than it was for us
Oh I wanna grow old with all of you and never grow up
I wanna leave the world a better place than it was for us
And we'll throw the sickest basement shows in
Whatever shitty old folk's home they stick us in to die
And laugh about when we were kids and how beautiful it is to be alive
Written by: April Hartman
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