Lyrics
[Verse 1]
I lay here on the kitchen floor, staring
At the ceiling, numb feeling
I turn my phone off to block out all the noise, but
I can't escape it, I can't take it
[PreChorus]
And every night, there's a war
In my head
[Chorus]
And it's so paralyzing
And nobody knows what I'm like
I'm self-sabotaging
'Cause I'm always too scared to try
Wanna be a lover, wanna be a fighter
But all I ever do is hide and fucking lie here
I'm a stranger in my own eyes
Wishing I were someone better at my life
It's so paralyzing, oh, oh
[Verse 2]
Keep faith is what everybody tells me
It's not forever, it gets better
[PreChorus]
But every night, there's still a war
In my head
[Chorus]
And it's so paralyzing
And nobody knows what I'm like
I'm self-sabotaging
'Cause I'm always too scared to try
Wanna be a lover, wanna be a fighter
But all I ever do is hide and fucking lie here
I'm a stranger in my own eyes
Wishing I were someone better at my life
It's so paralyzing, oh, oh
[Bridge]
I try to pick myself back up
Keep my demons out of touch
Like maybe that could be enough
To keep me hanging on
[PreChorus]
So every night, there's a war
I keep fighting
[Chorus]
And it's so paralyzing
And nobody knows what I'm like
I'm self-sabotaging
'Cause I'm always too scared to try
Wanna be a lover, wanna be a fighter
But all I ever do is hide and fucking lie here
I'm a stranger in my own eyes
Wishing I were someone better at my life
And it's so paralyzing, oh, oh
[Outro]
It's so paralyzing, oh, oh
Written by: India Anne Parkman, James Earp, Scarlet Grace Byford