to be held

When I woke up this morning

My whole left arm was numb

After the toss and turning

Must have slept on it wrong

I took it as a chance to

Hold my own face for once

Self-centered desperate dance, it's

It's like I had someone

I know I'm pathetic and projecting half the time

How I've had to compensate with friendships all my life

I know that I've acted without reason, without rhyme

'Cause it makes it easier to lie

And to say I'm not the problem

That my path will serve me well

'Cause what they have is what I want

To have and to be held

I can't afford the coffee

That I seek out each day

I'm in there way too often

The workers know my name

I take it as a chance to

Have someone tend to me

Pretend it's Sunday morning

He brewed it just for me

I know I'm pathetic and projecting half the time

How I've had to compensate with friendships all my life

I know that I've acted out of anger, out of spite

'Cause it makes it easier to lie

And to say I'm not the problem

That my path will serve me well

'Cause what they have is what I want

To have and to be held

To have and to be held

To have and to be held

To have and to be held

'Cause maybe I don't like going out

Maybe I just like kissing strangers

Maybe I never need a haircut

Just for my hair to be played with

I can't stand getting my nails done

But I like when they hold my hand

I feel like I'm just always searching for replacements for a man

I know I'm pathetic and projecting half the time

How I've had to compensate with friendships all my life

I know that I've acted out of grievance, out of pride

'Cause it makes it easier to lie

And to say I'm not the problem

That my path will serve me well

'Cause what they have is what I want

To have and to be held

To have and to be held

To have and to be held

To have and to be held

To have and to be held