That Choice

'Kay

Just dropped in from the daydream

You know I always gotta cause a big scene

Gotta make everything about me

I've been like this since I was like thirteen

So let me bend your ears while I got them

What is it you're really trying to run from?

I guess that's the thing about problems

While you ignore them, then you ain't got none

Oh, what a wonderful way to live

Cold, magnifying the things I did

I know something has got to give

I wait for the veil to lift

And oh

I'm feeling that choice in the way

I'm feeding that void every day

I'm screaming your voice in my brain

It's more than I can take, and oh

I'm feeling that choice in the way

A little blockade in my brain

Whatever comes next, I pray

It isn't more than I can take, yeah

Always late to the party

So everybody might look upon me

Show 'em something better than I might be

Force-feed a narrative, sell 'em what they wanna see

Wait, maybe that's the way I put the walls up

No one ever gets to get a close-up

That's the way illusions get bust up

Life's been a breeze, so long as I've kept the front up

Hey, don't make me reflect on things

Avoiding it all is an easy win

No way can the loneliness settle in

It's my choice to pretend to be king

And oh

I'm feeling that choice in the way

I'm feeding that void every day

I'm screaming your voice in my brain

It's more than I can take, and oh

I'm feeling that choice in the way

A little blockade in my brain

Whatever comes next, I pray

It isn't more than I can take, yeah

The person inside underwhelms me

So I pretend I'm something else entirely

A person who's better than me at everything

Rather you'd know that other guy instead of me

It's funny how it took so long to realize

I thought I was alone in tryna live lies

Maybe everyone's a person being hid behind

Would we all be so alone if we empathized?

Whoa, a depressing epiphany

I know you so far as you'd let me see

We're both different people way underneath

What happens when those people meet?

I don't know

I'm feeling that choice in the way

I'm feeding that void every day

I'm screaming your voice in my brain

It's more than I can take, and oh

I'm feeling that choice in the way

A little blockade in my brain

Whatever comes next, I pray

It isn't more than I can take, yeah

Oh, yeah

Oh-oh-oh-oh, oh

Ooh, yeah