Exile Is a Habit

*Indistinct chatter*

You’re probably due an explanation

Could be you’ve even been forgetting me

Well, I can’t say I really blame you

I’ve always let time get ahead of me

All of my broken-hearted friends

All of my enemies and nemeses

I’d love to see you all again

But for now my pride will get the best of me

And it’s sad, but true

My exile is a habit

Some day I’ll message you

From my quiet little planet

I’m not sure why

I keep my distance and extend it

I’m scared that I

Won’t be what you expected

All these impermanent connections

Born out of unavailability

I reminisce about the best ones

And it’s bittersweet, but they still live in me

Yeah, we hang out and share a space and time

Then like eight months later, "how you doin' there?"

I’m floating in and out of lives

But I do adore the times I’m spending there

And it’s sad, but true

My exile is a habit

Some day I’ll message you

From my quiet little planet

I’m not sure why

I keep my distance and extend it

I’m scared that I

Won’t be what you expected

*Indistinct chatter*