Worried

Am I afraid? They say I look lonely

A permanent face painted on me

Always strugglin' in my decay (Decay, decay, decay)

So did I do something wrong or was it all my fault

That I've been put down all my life, and lost all hope?

Don't tell me again how these hardships we face

Are all for the best, it has to be this way

Well, I woke up from a dream, I'm never where I want to be

When I look in the mirror I'm not proud of what I see

Could never find any comfort in my own skin

Standing on this ledge with all my selfish intentions

I'm so sick of feelin' my heart beat

Contentment comes with a sacrifice I'm not willin' to make

'Cause there's this part of me that hates to feel me smilin'

Am I too far gone with all the self-doubt? I'm just so worried

I'm just so worried, I'm worried

Are you listening to my words?

Am I wasting air? (Am I wasting air?)

It's not as simple as you made it out to be

I panic and panic, poor melancholy me

I'm only an image of what I want to be

So why did I grow up to hate what I see?

Just know now, if I could somehow

I'd trade it all, (Trade it all) I'd trade it all

'Cause I'm so sick of feeling my heart beat (My heartbeat)

Contentment comes with a sacrifice I'm not willin' to make

'Cause there's this part of me that hates to feel me smiling

Am I too far gone with all the self-doubt? I'm just so worried

I'm just so worried, I'm worried

Because every day it's all so routine

I live with all the things I fucking hate about me

I've been numb for so long, I'd be better off gone

So scared to die, but that's all I really want

And do you feel the shame in the words that ring true?

"You never did all the things you really wanted to do"

Regret every choice I've made up to this point

It's never been an option, can't do anything right

It's useless to ask what this life is all for

If we found out the answer, we'd still want more

I just wish I had something to live for

I just wish I had something to live