Blooms

This will forever be an apology

Because I know somehow it will set me free

I can't hold onto the self-abuse

It's not your fault, I missed my chance to bloom

Everything fades away

We're gonna meet the same fate

Even if you grow old or die alone

What difference will it make?

I'm obsolete, I'm obsolete

So easy to replace

I won't deserve a chance at happiness

Living this way

Just another line about the better days

Finding peace in what you had

I tell myself, one day

I'll reminisce and say

"Things really weren't so bad"

Because I didn't seem to let go

So I'm the only one to blame

For my bleak view on life

Left all alone in the mundane

But I know you knew

What it feels like, kid

You once loved so much

But you hate yourself for what you did

So I'll cry for help to find myself

In everyone else

That's not the person you thought you'd be

I fade away, I fade away

We're gonna meet the same fate

'Cause even if you grow old or die alone

What difference will it make?

I'm obsolete, I'm obsolete

So easy to replace

I won't deserve a chance at happiness

Living this way

It's constant heartache to face the world

Time after time

But when you only have so much of it

I feel my life just slip by

Is this all even real?

Is there something more to this?

All those moments we'll miss

When we're knocked back into the abyss

Will someone just give me a purpose to have?

'Cause my past can't be the best thing

That ever happened to me

This sadness just won't stop defining me

I lost my chance to leave to a

Promised land and feel whole again

Well, there's nothing left to see but

An empty, worthless shell of a man

And there's nothing to be proud of

I'll never know who I am

And with all those late night thoughts

Know in the back of my head I'll never see you again

And the older that I get

The more surprised I'll fuckin' be

I haven't ended it all yet