Exile Is a Habit

You're probably due an explanation Could be you've even been forgetting me Well I can't say I really blame you I've always let time get ahead of me All of my brokenhearted friends All of my enemies and nemeses I'd love to see you all again But for now my pride will get the best of me And it's sad but true My exile is a habit Some day I'll message you From my quiet little planet I'm not sure why I keep my distance and extend it I'm scared that I Won't be what you expected All these impermanent connections Born out of unavailability I reminisce about the best ones And it's bittersweet but they still live in me Yeah, we hang out and share a space and time Then like eight months later 'How're you doing there?' I'm floating in and out of light But I do adore the times I'm spending there And it's sad but true My exile is a habit Some day I'll message you From my quiet little planet I'm not sure why I keep my distance and extend it I'm scared that I Won't be what you expected