Searching

I think I’m overthinking my music

Don’t know if it chooses me or I choose it

I know us artists like to say its therapeutic

But it's what I go to therapy for

I’ll live my life while the whole world views it

My insecurities are so deep-rooted

When my song comes on, I mute it

And I don’t know why anymore

Maybe it's the pressure

Maybe it's myself

Thinking I won’t measure

Up to someone else

So please don’t

Think I'm only in this for my ego

Sometimes I wish that I was in a trio

To not be in the spotlight all alone

And I know

Every single day won’t be a high note

Its okay to hate a song that I wrote

Gotta find something I can call my own

Just gotta keep searching

Even if it isn’t working

Imma keep searching

I’ve always had this fear of success

Trying to exceed what I assume they expect

Although it doesn’t make me sing any less

I question who I’m doing it for

Maybe its my family

Maybe its my friends

Its like I'm scared to win a grammy

I know that makes no sense

So please don’t

Think I'm only in this for my ego

Sometimes I wish that I was in a trio

To not be in the spotlight all alone

And I know

Every single day won’t be a high note

Its okay to hate a song that I wrote

Gotta find something I can call my own

Just gotta keep searching

Even if it isn’t working

Imma keep searching

Searching for my peace

And different melodies

Guess I’ll always be

Searching, searching

Searching for my peace

And different melodies

I guess I’ll always be

Searching, searching

So please don’t

Think I'm only in this for my ego

Sometimes I wish that I was in a trio

To not be in the spotlight all alone

And I know

Every single day won’t be a high note

Its okay to hate a song that I wrote

I gotta find something I can call my own

Just gotta keep searching

Even if it isn’t working

Imma keep searching

I just gotta keep searching

Even if it isn’t working

Imma keep searching

"Connor, it's papa.

(sigh)I only got home a little bit ago from seeing your sister's show,

Alice in Wonderland

I gotta tell you (laughs), she is fantastic. Just wanted to let you know. Give me a call, when you can.

Thank you, love you, ciao."