At Peace

Hedge every bet, lick every boot, make every appeal

Prostrate yourself to the killing machine to spare yourself from its wheels

"Better them than me" rolls so seductively off your tongue

Your reckoning has begun

In spite of endless war, extinction level events, depredation, and plague

Every one of your ancestors survived to reproductive age

The probability that you are even here is next to none

Hey, no pressure, everyone

When shit got dark, I had to face it alone, there'd be no crying for help

Just how I'm wired, I've had to figure shit out my whole life by myself

I ain't saying it's cool, it's fucked up, truth be told, it's cost me a few friends

Sometimes, you must protect yourself

Fucker, I'm resourceful, resilient

I power through the waves of disappointment

Maybe not quite thriving, but I'm buoyant

I am at peace these days

Give or take a fit of blinding rage

I can't seem to shake the belief

That there's a liminal state between

Death and rebirth, in which you and me reconvene

Oh yes, I'm really fun at parties

Draw a dick on my face with a sharpie

Excuse me, sir, this is an Arby's

I am at peace

I am at peace

Though presently convulsed with grief

I am at peace

Some days, I'm scared I'm gonna die

Or even worse, I might survive

I try to keep these words in mind

"Nothing worth having comes without some kind of fight

Gotta kick at the darkness till it bleeds daylight"