Silence (feat. Sareena Dominguez)

Time is ticking, yeah, it's ticking away

I waited all my life to say

My misery hates company

I'm at a loss for words

That's a first for me

Silence is golden

Go through the motions

Silence is golden

The same color that my throne is

Yeah

Damn, I can't believe that my homeboy dead

I still feel shocked like I'm shot in the head

I woke up and cried till my eyes turned red

I wish it was a nightmare that I just had

The coroner just put my **** in a bodybag

And his mama turned away 'cause she cannot witness that

And I ain't know what to say

When I was standing with your dad

Only thing that I could think was

Goddamn, this is sad

Man, we was just laughing on the weekend

That was your goodbye, guess it just sinked in

No words that I can jot with the ink pen

To describe the way I feel, I guess I'm still grieving

I wish that I could bring my **** back

He ain't even know how much he meant to me

And that was wack that I couldn't even express it

Till he laying on his back

At his fucking funeral, when I ain't know how to react

Yeah, we supposed to get rich together

Got had another plan for you that was better

I said a prayer to your mama and your whole family

Rest in peace dawg, you my homeboy forever

Yeah, I know you living in the sky

I wish I had a better way to tell my **** bye

Make sure you cherish every moment that you spend

With your people, 'cause you never know, tomorrow they could die

Uh, you believed in me, homie

Yeah, and for that I thank you

I know you in a better place

Probably up in heaven cracking jokes with them angels

Never be forgotten as I'm writing over violins

I feel alone like I'm on my own island

I think about my **** every day

Like I'm at a loss for words as I drown in the silence

Time is ticking, yeah, it's ticking away

I waited all my life to say

My misery hates company

I'm at a loss for words

That's a first for me

Silence is golden

Go through the motions

Silence is golden

The same color that my throne is

Yeah, Damn there we go not speaking again?

Out the front door a **** leaving again

I rode around the city pissed off

About some bullshit you said

Make me feel like I ain't breathing again

I get back, and we ain't talked to each other for like two days

Damn, girl, who pissed in your Kool Aid?

I apologize a trillion times, make it a trillion-one

But this time I'm too late

Yeah, I guess you fed up with my shit

To get through that cold heart, I need an ice pick

The look our iris, so lifeless

Remember them good times we had that was priceless?

Damn, did I fuck you up that bad?

You need space now, I guess I expect that

I'm trying to break through them walls that you put up

But I don't even know where your head at

Yeah, I guess I better let her fly away

It's hard to cope with the pain, I wanna die today

I'll find a fucking hideaway to hibernate

I sit and let this liquor wash the hurt like a tidal wave

And oh yeah, by the way

If I could take all the hurt back I'd find a way

I guess I'll pop another pill so I can sleep

And let my brains cook

Like I put my head inside a microwave

Yeah, now I feel like a loser

I knew all the wrong I was doing

I would lose her

Now I see the light, amen, hallelujah

But I'm stuck in my shit like I sit in cow manure

World went crashing when I lost my co-pilot

Ringing in my head, somebody turn off the sirens

She ain't even talk to a ****

And it hurts so bad

Now all I do is drown in your silence

Time is ticking, yeah, it's ticking away

I waited all my life to say

My misery hates company

I'm at a loss for words

That's a first for me

Silence is golden

Go through the motions

Silence is golden

The same color that my throne is