lonely gift

On my birthday you got too drunk

I let you hurt me til you threw up

And you told me

If you could see yourself through my eyes

You would hate him

When you're in your head, are you all alone in it?

When you're in my bed I can hear your heart for what it is

It's such a lonely gift

You said you don't want it, I promise

And you woke up, cleaned the carpet

You were there once, you've been gone since

And I woke up holding nothing

You were mine once

Or were you gone?