Wake Up

I wake on the floor naked

I had the taste of the soil

Weight on the shovel

Face in a puddle

Did I make it?

How long it been since I felt my pulse in the shin

How many months is it since

How many more will it bring?

Don't have my body

They probably gon send me off in the wind

I played this part to the end would never start it again

Would suffer the fate of men with my lady parts in attendance

Would harbor the greed of them as they take me back from my penance

But the social justice

Nah I don't give a fuck bout either

All you did was just use it and played your part cause you need it

All it is was a rusing to fake the scars for your bleeding

Now it's you in your truth the excuses won't need no bruising

How did you as a woman

Think that this would be different?

Why assume that the ruler

Gives two shits if you finished

Loyalty in my hubris

I won't speak to the foolish

Only speak to the bullet

But hear the screams as I pull it

Wake the FUCK up

Wake the FUCK up

Wake the FUCK up

Wake the FUCK up

If what I bleed is necessary

And thou shall be indefinite

I shall not speak my heresies

I shall not speak my messages

How come thy kingdom left me here

How come thy kingdom sent me here

How come my freedom never left

Why can't I see the Nazareth

Some nights I drink with reverence

I slur my speech with every sentence

I burn my teeth with every drank

I tell my peeps it's medicine

Life as a kid the fuck happened to me?

My tragedy scene is seen as the last bastion of me

So the day of judgment

Won't try to play republic

Won't try to sway the covenant

Absolve me I'll stay repugnant

Hope that they fully clothed the body and raked the carcass

Hope that the bullet lodged inside me made its target

Cause let's be honest

Put me on a cross parade the corpus

Cause with the way it's going

I'll just state the obvious so don't hate me for it

I just hope I'll never be famous for it

The way of the bravest sorry

The blade is waiting for me I said I'm

Maybe it's disingenuous

Or maybe it's the fact that I'm starting to realize

That I don't love myself

I'm spending all night attempting not to judge myself

And if given another body woulda hung myself

I'm on the last rope

Sad to think that I had hope

Dug my knees in the back row

Can't believe I was that strong

For these last words won't need any adverbs

Just the silence cause I'm here and I'm screaming

Wake the FUCK up

Wake the FUCK up

Wake the FUCK up

Wake the FUCK up

Wake the FUCK up

Wake the FUCK up

Wake the FUCK up

Wake the FUCK up

Wake the FUCK up

Wake the FUCK up

Wake the FUCK up

Wake the FUCK up

Wake the FUCK up

Wake the FUCK up

Wake the FUCK up

Wake the FUCK up

Wake the FUCK up

Wake the FUCK up

It's been about a few days since I left this bed

Almost feels like I'm left for dead

Or maybe dead instead

I waste away cause I don't see any options

I can see that I'm conscious but I just feel like I'm rotting and

The lord forsaketh in awful places

I'm dealing with loss of days

The ceiling is all I gaze as I rot away

I might do it but not today see

There's a game coming out that I really wanna fucking play

So I'll just wither and soak

Maybe a glimmer of hope

Will slip me a note

I'm thinking it wont

Cause for now I'll just divvy the rope

And I'll see if holds

I eat a lot and I'm bigger than most

Can't shake the feeling I'm gross

Can't find me appealing at all

I know my loved ones need me to be strong

But this atrophy is fucking up my knees and my bones so

So, how do I keep going on?

Has anybody got advice right fore I sign the lease on my soul?

If it's a battle for the weak and the strong

I really couldn't give a fuck less I just need to be home

Right to the Mark Of the Beast

It shows its fangs as it sharpens its teeth yeah

My armor's only gold plated

Feeling like I'm clothed naked

And I know it won't save me if it targets my cheek

Through the blackened skies I will not go gentle

Take it off safety and put it on to my temple

Through the blackened skies I will not go gentle

I will not go gentle