The Weight

Slept with a constellation night light on When I was a kid So when I woke up Fearing you were gone I'd look up and it was insignificant Since then I have expanded my orbit To reaffirm my importance in the grand scheme If I'm made up of molecules They all pretend I have form But I'm not sure I've learned that I am matter I don't want to matter no more Don't got much meat on my bones Not making it through the winter But I've gotten so good At hiding as I get thinner Don't want to take up much space So I get the best hiding place How can you tell me I'm safe If I am seen? I am calling you my soulmate Because that's what you are I'm not thrilled about it either Must be written up in Starlink Or in white dwarfs If I was the center of gravity It'd fall into place naturally Of that I'm sure I'm made up of molecules They all pretend I have form But I'm not sure I've learned that I am matter I don't want to matter no more Don't got much meat on my bones Not making it through the winter But I've gotten so good At hiding as I get thinner Don't want to take up much space So I get the best hiding place How can you tell me I'm safe if I am seen? In the water, I am lighter than everything I'll take off my shirt If you make all of the swimmers sink Weaponize all my weight Realize I'm not what I ate Or there'd be nothing To shame anymore. (anymore) I've seen the shape of my shadow Shrink and expand over time But it proves that there's still light Don't got much meat on my bones Not making it through the winter But I've gotten so good At hiding as i get thinner Don't want to take up much space So I get the best hiding place I'm safe Where I will never escape In the water, I am lighter than everything I'll take off my shirt If you make all of the swimmers sink Weaponize all my weight Realize I'm not what I ate Or there'd be nothing To shame anymore. (anymore) I've seen the shape of my shadow Shrink and expand over time It's tough to sink when it's shallow But I'll pull it off if I try