Autumn Always

It’s always autumn in my head I wonder why?

I hate the feeling when our conversations die

Sink like a stone into the silence I despise

I’ll never see you again

The tempest gathers in a late September sky

I feel it crawling up the coast with the rising tide

I lock the doors and board the windows up in time

I feel it coalescing

I almost hope it gets inside

I know

That I kept your ghost

Instead of moving on

And I hope

That I’m left below

When the tempest overflows

It's always autumn underneath these broken words

Unfinished arguments that lay on your grave unheard

This peace and quiet is a blessing and a curse

I’ll never see you again

The thunder speaks to me in tones I can’t discern

The rain is heavy on the street as the hailstones burst

Maybe this deluge is the ending I deserve

The coast is overflowing

I almost hope it’s growing worse

I know

That I kept your ghost

Instead of moving on

And I hope

That I’m left below

When the tempest overflows

I swear I’m gonna die here in time

With the only thing that I fear in life

These permanent regrets I can’t hide

No time to make amends

Lightning strike me down now

I’ll leave my fate

Underneath these turbulent seas that break

It’s not the thought of my death I hate

It’s my last moment alive

I can't take my own mind

I know

That I kept your ghost

Instead of moving on

And I hope

That I’m left below

When the tempest overflows

I wish I had been warned

I spent so much time inside the eye of the storm

I couldn't see the signs

I’m on the shore

The storm will take me if I don't die from remorse

I let this be my life