If I'll Ever Win

Avoiding all the mirrors 'Til she wakes up a little thinner Replaying conversations in her head that speak too loud And she talks a little quiet Thinks it's better to be silent She learned to bite her tongue because it hurts too much to let it out She fights a war against herself Against herself No one ever comes to help I don't know, don't know where to hide From someone I don't recognize She hates my body The body that she's trapped inside She keeps me up at night I don't know if it ever ends It slows down then it starts again She hates my body The body that we're living in I don't know if I'll ever win I think I've become my bully Convinced myself nobody wants me I'm nothing but a burden who's still learning how to cope with life But that girl in my mind Tells me I'm nothing Go down another size That I'm not worth loving So don't even try Cause I could never do it right I don't know, don't know where to hide From someone I don't recognize She hates my body The body that she's trapped inside She keeps me up at night I don't know if it ever ends It slows down then it starts again She hates my body, The body that we're livin' in I don't know if I'll ever win Cause the more I try, the more it hurts And giving up just makes it worse I don't know, don't know where to hide From someone, I don't recognize She hates my body, The body that she's trapped inside She keeps me up at night I don't know if it ever ends It slows down then it starts again She hates my body, The body that we're livin' in I don't know if I'll ever win