Spaceship

the walls are white

first time I stayed the night

I thought that in the silence

this could be an asylum

you live in a spaceship

I thought I could get used to it

to feeling shit

I'll go to tell you that I love you

when I know you won't say it back

what's the use in that?

some deluded part of me just thinks you're lying

so I keep trying

every time we have sex

I do an STI test

blood from my finger

on the sink

and in the mirror

the first time that I used your loo

I thought I could get used to you

and what you do

I'll go to tell you that I love you

when I know you won't say it back

what's the use in that?

some deluded part of me just thinks you're lying

so I keep trying

you unpick me til you make a hole

like a secret I keep you close

you unpick me til you make a hole

and I act like I don't know

you unpick me til you make a hole

like a secret I kept you close

you unpick me til you made a hole

and I act like I don't know

I'll go to tell you that I love you

when I know you won't say it back

what's the use in that?

some deluded part of me just thinks you're lying

so I keep trying