Holes In The Wall

Don't you act surprised, I'm barely alive

And I'm still hanging on, I don't know why

I fuck up everything, don't know why I try

They say that it gets better, don't know why they lie

Oh, a broken man only falling into pieces

Deep in, falling off every other weekend

Fighting with himself on, maybe he needs a reason

To stay inside the world when he doesn't mean shit

Felt something missing ever since I've been a little kid

Struggle with love, and that stems from abandonment

Bad habits mixed with low self-esteem

Try not to panic, but ain't nobody helping me

Oh, sitting depressed, but that's my fault 'cause I'm the only one to blame

And I get mad and punch that wall 'cause I'ma see myself again

And what I see, I do not like, a cycle that I hate

And let's be real, I know the truth, if I'm the only one in my way

And I've hurt people that I love, and knowing I can't take that back

Makes me hurt inside my soul, I fucking hate how y'all react

And I feel like that's all I know, so when I'm hurt, I fucking snap

And when I snap, everyone's hurt, so then it all just turns right back

No, I'm not perfect, no, I'm flawed, the tools to fix me can't be found

Holes in the wall of every house I've ever lived in since a child

And that kid bad as fuck, wonder why he's acting up

Wonder why his daddy ain't around, like that shit bad enough

I wish sometimes I could be

Someone not like me

I wish sometimes I was in a

A broken man only falling into pieces

Deep in, falling off every other weekend

Fighting with himself on, maybe he needs a reason

To stay inside the world when he doesn't mean shit

Yeah, and it seems I'm fucking nothing

Every time that I turn around

Every time I open up my mouth

It's the wrong shit that keeps coming out

Saying shit that I don't mean

And I struggle, bitch, just to calm down

Feeling like I'm never being heard

Why the fuck you think I'm always getting loud?

Oh, he's broken

Over and wonder everything gon' work out

Screaming at the world

Hoping that it scream back

Knowing that if I don't ever change

I'm the only reason I'm mad

I don't mean to lose my cool

Especially if it means losing you

Oh, I don't even know why I'm so mad

All I know is that I'm a broken man

A broken man only falling into pieces

Deep in, falling off every other weekend

Fighting with himself on, maybe he needs a reason

To stay inside the world when he doesn't mean shit