Know How It Hurts

Close my eyes and I am seven being told I cannot play I used to think I'd get to heaven if I stayed out of the way Now I don't trust the world a fraction It's let us down too many times I have an insecure attachment style and my body isn't mine You don't have to hide it, I know how it hurts It's hard to describe it, you don't have the words We still have to fight it, we still have to work You don't have to hide it, I know how it hurts (I know how it hurts) Is it all mass distraction? It's my body, it's my choice It's just a different kind of playground now Where they still don't hear my voice Every time we think we're climbing We get pushed back down the stairs In every room the quiet killer It's a feeling that's always there You don't have to hide it, I know how it hurts It's hard to describe it, you don't have the words We still have to fight it, we still have to work You don't have to hide it, I know how it hurts (I know how it hurts) And I'm screaming in my dream and no one turns around It's a violent undercurrent, it's a crash without a sound You don't have to hide it, I know how it hurts It's hard to describe it, you don't have the words We still have to fight it, we still have to work You don't have to hide it, I know how it hurts (I know how it hurts) You don't have to hide it, I know how it hurts (I know how it hurts)