Credits
COMPOSITION & LYRICS
Tyrell Bird
Songwriter
PRODUCTION & ENGINEERING
Tyrell Bird
Engineer
Lyrics
The ego loves all that I probably should not
Put it all down to prove I'm a real man
Mama, don't cry, I will find my real peace
The way I went down, this drink tryin' to kill me
I cannot fathom how this all became me
Tried so hard to pull back, it pulled me
Back to the same old path that built me
So, I pray to the Lord there's more for me
Since the first, I was never the same
Late nights crying, know I'm lying
I'm just trying, love me, baby
I am fading, Mr. elated
Used to the pain I feel
Toast to the day, I will
Fall to the fake ideals
Dissociate, I'm real
Bottle to the face, I filled
Cups for the squad, we lit
This is all the time I get
I don't wanna stop this yet
Moving on the edge, vignette
I just feel like I'm next
Wouldn't surprise me, death
The ego loves all that I probably should not
Put it all down to prove I'm a real man
Mama, don't cry, I will find my real peace
The way I went down, this drink tryin' to kill me
I cannot fathom how this all became me
Tried so hard to pull back, it pulled me
Back to the same old path that built me
So, I pray to the Lord there's more for me
I just don't like me, hate what the night brings
Fill my cup, I'm a move at light speed
I can't look in the mirror, don't like me
Fill my lungs with the smoke, don't tempt me
Kill my liver, just to go reel empty
Tryna fill holes with some hoes and a Bentley
Like lord, don't you tempt me
She's my drug, she is laced with Fenty
Mr. Elated, living life faded
There's no escapin', losing my patience
Moving through phases and stages
Losing my grip on temptations
Like to numb all my sensations
The ego loves all that I probably should not
Put it all down to prove I'm a real man
Mama, don't cry, I will find my real peace
The way I went down, this drink tryin' to kill me
I cannot fathom how this all became me
Tried so hard to pull back, it pulled me
Back to the same old path that built me
So, I pray to the Lord there's more for me
I used to pray to the Lord for better days
Now, my mind right, show love to my enemies
Play my cards right, I'm gon' take it day to day
Do it for me, I don't care 'bout what they say
The Devil wanna rip out my heart with a steal knife
Got evil around me, but I still fight, man
'Cause then y'all just bark with no bite
Fam' countin' on me to do right
Why, when they show love I always think twice?
I don't know
Got issues and prisoned in a loop, that I don't show
I'm trying to be a better man for you
Trying to live by a code
When you're down on your luck
What you do is, focus on the growth
Written by: Tyrell Bird
