A Pleasure To Have In Class

Last night you heard me talking in my sleep

Giving everybody else advice, Til there was none left for me

For so long I've been wearing this mask

I don't even know when the real me is coming back

And my patience

Is wearing down

'Look at me young woman when im talking to you', they say

But looking in your eyes is something I just can't do, I say

I look away and you wonder why

You just don't get to decide

Whether you see my soul

My soul that's deep inside

I say a prayer before I eat

And I smile at everyone I meet

So why do I feel like something's missing?

Can you see t his mask I wear so well

Im faking and you can't even tell

They even said you're not like the others I met before

Now they always told me I should be myself

But little old me I had to protect myself

learning the hard way, I locked up that door

Promised myself I wouldn't get hurt no more

But now im grown what if I've lost the key?

And I die not knowing the real me

No I can't go to my grave

Without being brave

You'll see

When will I know?

When will I know

When I finally find

Where did I hide

This lost soul of mine

I say a prayer before I eat

And I smile at everyone I meet

So why do I feel like something's missing?

Can you see t his mask I wear so well

Im faking and you can't even tell

They even said you're not like the others I met before

Ever since I was a little child, something's missing now baby

It's way deep inside of me

It twists and it turns, and it aches and it burns

Am I not made for this world?

I knew it since I was a little girl