Downhill

Downhill

Looks like downhill from here

I'm still

Wondering how I made it through the year

I've been trying to find the difference between the feeling and the fear

But it's unclear

Downhill

Couldn't stop it if I tried

I still see the broken glass, the flashing lights

I've been selfish I've been reckless

Never thought I'd feel so numb at twenty-five

At twenty-five

I'm breathing into my chest

I wake up shivering, cold

Look at the blood on my hands

Feels like I'm losing control

Through all the tears and the sweat

Feels like I'm starting again

I never said I was done

I'm coming back from the dead

I'm coming back from the dead

I'm coming back from the-

Downhill

Like a spell, I can't resist

I'm still under 'cause I can't get over it

I've tried every kind of poison

But attention is the drug that I can't quit

I can't quit

Downhill

I would stop if I knew how

They said I should thank the loss for what I found

Pay respects, I'll lay my flowers on the grave

And salt the ground

I'm going down

I'm going down

I hear the sound of the drums

I feel it under my skin

Beating the walls like a pulse

And now it's pulling me in

I dragged myself through the mud

I talked myself off the edge

I never said I was done

I'm coming back from the dead

I'm coming back from the dead

I'm coming back from the dead

All the bad days, and the bouquets, and the words unsaid

All my worst traits, every worst case playing in my head

Overwhelm me

Heaven help me, I'm in love with it

Get in, we're going down fucking hill

Downhill

Looks like downhill from here

I'm still wondering how I made it through the year

I've been trying to find the difference between the feeling and the fear

But it's unclear

It's unclear

Downhill

Couldn't stop if I tried

I will, maybe, if I make it out alive

I'm awake, and I've been patient

I've been waiting for the moment to arrive

To arrive

Downhill