Healing Process (Leave of Absence)

You don't get it

You won't get away

I find it funny how you'd leave but won't lead

Won't lean

Won't see

I don't want to play a part

I don't want to give it all a name

A name

No gain

No gain

I felt it all revolve around

Revolve around

Your grave

Your grave

With no grace

No grace

You don't get it

You don't get it

I've dug myself into deeper

Leave me out of the dreams I started

I started

Outsmarted

Outsmarted

With a glimpse of your teeth, I'll go ahead and proceed to fall in

To fall in

To crawl in

To crawl in

Call it as I can see it

I won't believe it unless

I feel it all

Tear away from the paths that we formed with the blood that leaked through me

I've seen far worse than you know

You don't get it

There's no winning

They love to fall into line, but can't seem to get along without a law

A law

Without their God

Their God

Having every good reason to retreat from bereavement fastened

Fastened

Settled

Settled

With theatrical sequences

I hope the bleeding persists

Giving in

I'm giving in

I've given all I've gotten

My God is not from above these clouds holding toxic contagions

Giving in

But as it falls, I'm giving

Looking above, knowing you're not

Send my coffin to the place of cancellation

Give me extinction

Hear me or not, I'll be your God

Mend my trauma with a brief moment

Relieve me of these demons that you held

I feel it all

Tear away from the paths that we formed with the blood that leaked through me

I've seen far worse than you know

You don't get it

You don't get it

Is this what you wanted?

Is it your warning?

I don't want to think of us

I don't want to think what we could be

I don't want to think of love

I don't want to think of how it should be

I don't want to feel a pulse

I don't want to feel it all consume me

I don't really want to know

I don't really want to know