Fishnets

I'm not confident but

I work on it on a weekly basis

I've got a good routine

Wake up, morning pages, ginger tea

When I use my brain I know what's wrong and right

Someone tell that to my gut

I don't know what I'm doing and I don't like it

You're the only reason I got in these twisted fishnets

Why would you care how I feel (really)

You've never been better and I've been reeling

Nothing makes sense

When you look at it closely

When I'm doing my best

I can't commit 'cause I'm lonely

When Ayaka doesn't call I wanna scream

It's like when you don't call me

I don't understand what I'm doing and I don't like it

You're the only reason I write otherwise I'm useless

What did I say (you did a full 180)

You'd never been better and now you hate me

I vacillate

Between despair and a solid state

Based on the day

And the way my cheeks fill out my face

When I feel my feelings I'm arrested by

How nice it might feel to burn them out

I don't know what I'm doing and I don't like it

You're the only reason I got in these fishnets

Why would you care how I feel (really)

You've never been better and I've been reeling