I'm Fine (I Lied)

I'm starting over from the ending

no composure, fixing, mending

I'm out of excuses and everyone loses

no one more than me

I keep it going with no one knowing

but pretty soon the cracks are showing

it only gets harder, looming and larger

I can barely breathe

I said I'm fine, turns out I lied to get by

You said goodbye, turns out you lied

and I don't mind

Are you asking with already knowing

tell me am I telling, or am I just showing

if you think it's so easy, you're welcome to test me

failing every time

so if you wanted to know, it won't show

the fuse is already lit and burns slow

I'm a nervous wreck with a reality check

so here it goes.

I'm making a monster, and I'm drowing

critics laughing, the gallery's frowning

why is it so hard to be grateful

when it's payback you get what you pay for

why is it so hard to just be excited

if you're just passing by I'll tell you that I'm fine

but I fucking lied