Counting Back From 13

What the fuck

 Do you want me to do

 I'm in love

 Still in love with you

 I take drugs

 Just to make it through

 Nights I'm alone

 Without you by my side

 I try to be fine but I'm not

 Seeing the angles that got you so tangled my god

 Now you're screaming in my face and you're slamming the door

 Just to come back in to argue some more

 And collect everything except for me

 So now I'm

 Counting back from 13

 Trying to stay calm and breathe

 I'm counting back from 13

 Trying to stay calm and breathe

 Have I become a caricature of what I once was?

 A buffoon trying to prove he can still love

 But not sure that is true

 I've been sewn shut

 Just wandering

 Without you by my side

 I try to be fine but I'm not

 And most of the time I feel like

 This heart just might stop

 You know that I've told you every word before

 And I'm getting

 Too old for waking up alone

 Believe me

 Or finally leave me

 Let me be

 So now I'm

 Counting back from 13

 Trying to stay calm and breathe

 I'm counting back from 13

 Trying to stay calm and breathe