Lyrics

My therapist said I was experiencing
Disenfranchised grief
When I say it out loud
It sounds like a cop out for being 23
Where do I go from here
If I can’t move on
Will this past year
Bury me til I’m gone
Wish my dad still had his jeep
I’d take it out now
Drive down side streets
Top down to my best friend’s house
Singing Cigarette Dreams
Until we grew out
Of each other and the people in this town
Or was that just me
18 moving south
Thinking I was better than them now
I can count on one hand
The friends I have left
In this town who like me
Spent all of this time
Letting those friendships die
Now it’s come to bite me
Avoiding downtown
It’s a mile a from her house
What would I say to her
When you needed me the most
Acted like I didn’t know
Now it’s been five years
Wish my dad still had his jeep
I’d take it out now
Drive down side streets
Top down to my best friend’s house
Singing “Cigarette Daydreams”
Until we grew out
Of each other and the people in this town
Or was that just me
18 moving south
Thinking I was better than them
Home for December
Tiptoe down the stairs
I remember living under this roof
I remember the lies I told to see you
Who I was to you in 2015
Not the girl that you see
Avoiding you at all costs
There are parts of me that never grew up
Suburban town
Teenage freak
Midwest bitch
Believe my dreams
Acing small talk
Diverting eyes
Your sister hates me
I was surprised
Drop me off
Lewis Ave.
10 years older
I’ve lost a friend
Blink twice
Grab my hand
Pretend like
I don’t remember it
Written by: Allison Mahal
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