Hard To Live (feat. David Benites)

I fake a smile

But the truth is buried

'Cause down underneath

My mind is going places

I never want to be

I know these lies are self-inflicted

But they won't let me go

I know I'm feeling so conflicted

Can't fight this war alone

Feels like I'm fallin' deep inside my head again

How much can I take before the demons win?

I don't wanna let go, just wanna let you know

That I am struggling

And I build these walls around me

To keep from going under

But they fall on me

And I'm defenseless

It's all on me, gotta get a grip

Never thought it'd come to this

There ain't no question now

I feel it coming down

My mind, searching for a better place

And I'm hoping it's enough for me

Cause when the sunlight fades

And I am slipping away

It's all or nothing, I need to find a reason to stay

I've got this sinking feeling that I can't seem to shed

It's got me numb to everything, now all I see is red

I'm losing my grip

Crack under pressure, keep pushing until I break

Claw my way out of this darkness that I create

Brick by brick I'll seal myself away from this illusion

I don't know how much more I have left to give

And I build these walls around me

To keep from going under

But they fall on me

And I'm defenseless

It's all on me, gotta get a grip

Never thought it'd come to this

There ain't no question now

I feel it coming down (again)

Could you tell me how to make believe

That none of this is happening?

Making something out of nothing, yeah

Overthinking, I'm sinking

I'm coming down again

I can feel it coming down again

I can feel it coming down again

I can feel it coming down again

I can feel it coming down again