Not turtley enough for the Turtle Club

Conversations I'm holding on to

Waiting and waiting for this feeling to change

Getting over the notion

That one day I’ll use this convoluted state of mind that you branded on me

I’m in the alley while you’re drunk at the gala inside

I’ve got prescription pills with other people names on the side

This overthinking leads to over drinking

and I’m over drinking with this sinking feeling cus

I’m not a disappointment in disguise

I wear all my mistakes on the outside

I didn’t lie

This is the hill where I die

Swallow your pride

This is the hill where I die

There was a map that lied

One that changed my mind

You held my hand and said that everything would be just fine

You always told me chase these pretty people and dream

I come back home to an obituary that reads

We lay to rest the boy who thought he had a choice

Lie by the grave that has an empty space for my name

I’m not a disappointment in disguise

I wear all my mistakes on the outside

I didn’t lie

This is the hill where I die

Swallow your pride

This is the hill where I die

We’re not the same

Don’t you listen to a word that I say

I’m not afraid

I’m just patching up the holes that you made

I’ve done my time

As the silence I’m in says it’s violent dying breath

I’ll never be happy if you keep coming at me

Jump down my throat and I’ll sink this fucking boat

Drown the lies you recognize as truth, no I won’t be like you

I hate you. I love you it’s over

It’s lonely without you come over

Six feet underneath where you want me to stay

Lay your roses by my name

I’m not a disappointment in disguise

I wear all my mistakes on the outside

I didn’t lie

This is the hill where I die

Swallow your pride

This is the hill where I die