Troubled Mind

I'm no longer sure I have got this

I'm just searching for a diagnosis

I know and understand it's not all I am

I need to remain calm

This troubled mind

Has kept me tormented for all this time

I'm trying to unpick all these tangled twines

That are tripping up my thoughts in this troubled mind

I spent my whole life trying not to rouse suspicion

Trying to avoid self help or self destruction

A life spent on the run, don't know any other one

It might be time for medication

Someone slipped me something in the green room

Instead of picking me up, it spun me round

You're asking me questions I don't know the answers to

I'm putting the phone down

Did you think about the method?

Or not want to be around?

When you disappeared that time

Did you want to be found?

This troubled mind

Has kept me tormented for all this time

And I’m trying to unpick all these tangled twines

That are tripping up my thoughts in this troubled mind