Hard Headed

Tryna change my way of thinkin', I just don't know where to start

Tryna keep my head up but my mom fallin' apart

And money don't heal the pain, I just hide it with shit I bought

I put chains around my neck, but can't put chains around my heart

I let people into my life who said it's gone be alright

Thinkin' that they wouldn't, but they would for the right price

I think love is overrated anyway

'Cause if the love is real, it shouldn't fade away

And I used to pray for better days, they ain't ever came

Love is overrated anyways, it don't mean a thang

It just turn my heart darker, but made me think smarter

When pain come from someone you love, it hit harder

Trustin' all my brothers, know, I love 'em till the death of me

Loyalty should come with the love, that's the recipe

Think I need a scouter, it be hard to read your energy

And you ain't treat me right, but I still gave you what's left of me

They said, "live and learn," but when I'ma start learnin'?

And if time really heal, then why am I still hurtin'

'Cause I've been waitin', Lord, I've been so patient

Feel like it's the same old thing, just a different day

Same fake love, they just showin' it in a different ways

Keep fallin' for it and I don't get it

Heart too big and I'm hard-headed

Everybody tellin' me that time gon' heal me

If it don't happen soon, Father, time gon' kill me

'Cause I can't see clearly, I don't know where I'm goin'

Blind, but my eyes wide open

Turned they back on me, but they won't do that shit again

I remember when the mirror was my one and only friend

Even that came to an end

I learned how to love myself

Locked in it, put my feelings on the shelf

Remember I was cryin' out for help and I felt sorry, no

Feel like I've been crossed by everyone that I had feelings for

I'ma be the greatest, that's the only thing I know for sure

Tryna ride my wave, when they're the ones that threw me overboard

Look at how them tables turn

She ain't wait for me but want me to wait for her

I can't do that, baby

I'm the only one that could save me

Appreciate the beauty and the struggle 'cause it made me

They said live and learn, but when I'ma start learnin'?

And if time really heal then why am I still hurtin'?

'Cause I've been waitin', Lord, I've been so patient

Feel like it's the same old thing, just a different day

Same fake love they just showin' it in a different ways

Keep fallin' for it and I don't get it

Heart too big and I'm hard-headed