Filth

(Neglect the rules, respect the codes, follow the guidelines.

Life's been ugly so far but these are fine times...)

I woke up and I couldn’t see nothing

Mum had pain in abundance

Seen fiends hold needles like vaccines

And all the drunkards passed out in their own piss, it’s pungent

I grew up in the filth and disgusting

Mum put frubes in the lunches

Mum good news

Your son got a few dudes

And they’re wanting to be his friends

I needed them to function

Please pretend

I knew I couldn’t be

Everything you wanted me to be

9 years old

I knew I couldn’t read

Daddy’s anger running in my genes

I’m fucking up

I’m lashing out

She’s asking why her baby boy is acting out?

I’m closing up

I’m closing up

God forgive me if I lose my cool

I don’t wanna get held back at school

I knew that art was an avenue

To get a start in this life we choose

God forgive me if I lose my cool

I don’t wanna get held back at school

I knew that art was an avenue

To get a start in this life we choose

(You can't even scratch the surface because you're weak

You don't even pack a punch not even digging me, you're kidding me.

You're merely, clearly, really worthless besides

To get rough and it's tough but that's life deal with how bad it is)

Every morning I rise, I pray that my mum don't lie to me

I realise other kids ain’t liking me

I dunno why but mummy don’t lie to me

(Please don’t lie)

If I’m so damn handsome why they all laugh in my face?

It takes my heartbeat to break

I wake every morning and shake my head to the Lord

Please take me away

Please pretend

I knew I couldn’t be

Everything you wanted me to be

9 years old

I knew I couldn’t read

Daddy’s anger running in my genes

I’m fucking up

I’m lashing out

She’s asking why her baby boy is acting out?

I’m closing up

I’m closing up

Comic books saved my life

Heartaches and broken minds

I can’t take these hopeless times

So I partake, pretend I’m fine

I’m not

Ain’t picking fights with nobody

Too scared to leave the house

I grew up to be a homebody

Mummy should have known probably

Came back with my nose runny

Black eye, I need to hold something

I feel the cold coming

Blocks heating too

Another boy dead

His mum’s grieving proof

Mother in my heart she wants me to win

Demons on my back they want me to lose

Can’t stop now made moves since 22 just killed 23

Lil Jeff’ll be proud of me

Maybe I’m meant to lose

Maybe I’m meant to lose

Maybe I’m meant to lose this race

Maybe I’m meant to lose