Dissipate

I never asked for this burden

I never asked for this cross that I bear on my back

But like an ulcer scratching against my tongue

I can't leave it alone

So you can find me down at the bottom

With a stomach full of stones

I can't outrun my fate, it follows like a shadow

I put all of my faith in a saint without a halo

But I won't die pretending

I'm not intending to see this through

Until I, too, become invisible to you

So pull me under, be sure to leave no trace

Never wonder, I see it on your face

What do I have to do to demonstrate

Just to demonstrate

The way it makes me feel and think?

I feel like I could fucking suffocate

I could suffocate

And you would barely blink

I could suffocate and you would barely blink

So I'll sink, searching for an answer

With a stomach full of stones

These thoughts are like a cancer

Growing in my bones

I've made this hell my home

Never again, sever the sin from within my soul

The darker half that makes me whole

I was only dreaming

I was never here

I was only dreaming

Of how I'll disappear

I can't outrun my fate, it follows like a shadow

I put all of my faith in a saint without a halo

But I won't die pretending

I'm not intending to see this through

Until I, too, become invisible to you

I was only dreaming

Invisible to you

I was never here

But I won't die pretending

I'm not intending to see this through

Until I, too, become invisible to you

Become invisible to you

I long to leave, leave the past behind

And tear out the thorn that's in my side

Tear out, tear out the thorn

Tear out, tear out the thorn that's in my side