To Be Soft

Grew up in the north

Not the far north, but the north enough to know

The sting of the wind and the numb of months and months of snow

When you go, I'll try not to let myself be all

I was there on the stoop in the snow, I was there

I was there, I would sing so I'd know I was there

Your words are so robotic, your eyes want where you didn't end up

You aren't alone in the night

You still love one another, you just don't kiss each other

Your hands are warm and safe late at night

Oh, oh, oh, oh

Oh, oh

And I wanna love me as I was when I was seventeen

When all of the sharp things were pouring into my body

When all of the lies that could keep me safe

Were forged into armor, it's hard to escape

And I wanna love you with all of my body

But it's full of defenses, they are faster than I am

They're so sharp, they make me so sharp

I am not an ocean, I am not jagged cliffs

I would be a bird, I would be a swarm of bees

I would be soft as the soil, soft enough to sink into

Ooh, ooh, ooh