Her, Instead

You were so careless with your words (Words) Had me convinced that I was yours I spent so many nights Not trying to pick a fight I sat and told you all my fears You told me seven years I shut out my thoughts and called them lies You made me believe that you were mine So imagine my surprise When it turns out was I right You went to substitute your pain For playing my heart like a game Tell me, do you think about her when were laying in bed Do you wish it wasn't me, but rather her instead You say you love me, but I feel like you're not telling the truth Cause if you cared you wouldn't treat me as bad as you do I can't be your resting stop to hurt Just cause it didn't work with her first And I'm not the type, not insecure But I can't help think you see her When you're looking in my eyes Is she who you fantasize? Bout' when you're sleeping next to me That's not how loves supposed to be Tell me, do you think about her when were laying in bed Do you wish it wasn't me, but rather her instead You say you love me, but I feel like you're not telling the truth Cause if you cared you wouldn't treat me as bad as you do Said you want to build a life You told me I would be your wife I know she heard you say it too Repeating patterns what you do Don't give excuses for the reasons that you don't treat me well When you know deep down that you're still in love with somebody else I'll wipe the version of our life that I built up in my head Cause now I know that you had wished it was with her instead