Abandoned

Gettin' wicked (yeah) But don't get it twisted (uh-uh) I ain't trippin', know that pistol with me (yeah, yeah) Ridin' through the city (uh) Mindin' my own business (yeah) Vibe with my own bitches (yeah) Get high with my own niggas (stay with Vegas on the wave, uh) I say don't say you love me now Been betrayed so many times, I feel like love don't let me down I been played so many times, I feel like fuck it Yeah, they say love hurt, but pain heals Yeah, I don't know what's worse if that ain't real Every day, I wake up starin' at the man in the mirror I see stains in the mirror, I see pain in the mirror I see mistakes made, tryna get this paper, yeah Fake friends wanna be me, hey, yeah Just to maintain, bein' me gets crazy, yeah Shit ain't the same, but niggas, they don't change (yeah, uh) I know that bitch don't love me, but she say it every chance she get (ooh-oh) (mm-hm) I know that bitch ain't for me, but I fuck her every chance I get (ooh-oh) (mm-hm) Before I blame anybody, I'ma blame myself (blame myself) 'Cause I jumped in the game knowin' they wasn't playin' fair, yeah And I jumped on that plane, knowin' I was high as hell And my heart stopped, 'cause I OD'ed, but I thank God I'm here I spazzed out in the hospital and then got hauled to jail (got hauled to jail) Got out with no missed calls like ain't nobody care And I was all the way in Milwaukee, damn Derez De'Shon I say don't say you love me now Been betrayed so many times, I feel like love don't let me down I been played so many times, I feel like Don't say you love me now Been betrayed so many times, I feel like love don't let me down I been played so many times, I feel like fuck it Every time I close my eyes, I think about that night (think about that night) When a bullet went hit my truck, life flashed before my eyes (before my eyes) Layin' on that ground, I'm prayin' to God that I don't die (that I don't die) Layin' on that ground, I'm beggin' God it ain't my time How all these rap niggas keep dyin'? Crazy (keep dyin'? Crazy) Feds talkin' to us, tryna hide us in cages Every day, it's gettin' harder to provide for my babies (provide for my babies) Every day, I'm dodgin' charges and watchin' for haters Man, this shit crazy, like for real, bro I never in a million years would've thought, like- This is what come with it (I say don't say you love me now) Like a nigga sittin' like, "Damn, bro, I finally made it" (been betrayed so many times) But damn, this ain't what I want, this not how I dreamed (I feel like love don't let me down) (I been played so many times), yeah, man (I feel like-) I'm talkin' 'bout family change, partners change (don't say you love me now) (I been played so many times) Everything change, and they say you changed (I feel like love don't let me down) When you adjust to it It's crazy, like- (I been played so many times, I feel like-) A dream turned into a nightmare, you like- "Damn, I don't want it, I'm good"