Punishing Myself Before God Does

Redemption is not just about survival

It is one lost soul's revival

Would you call my name

Or cast me to the flame?

Redemption is not just about survival

It is one lost soul's revival

Would you call my name

Or cast me to the flame?

It's like a story that plays in the back of my head

Nowhere to hide, so face it instead

A voice screaming louder when you push it aside

Nowhere to run so look inside

God may forgive me, but I won't

Forced to face my fears again

God may forgive me, but I won't

I refuse to play pretend

It's white noise in a dark room

Clawing out from your skin

Echoes tower over me

Echoes tower over me

God may forgive me, but I won't

Forced to face my fears again

God may forgive me, but I won't

This suffering will end

Now I can't see my own face

It's blinded by the shame

Would you call my name?

Now you tell me everything

Is gonna be okay

Would you call my name?

Would you call my name

Or cast me to the flame?

Fear is the tax that conscience pays to guilt

Please have mercy on my soul

Is the guilt that I've got the good I didn't do?

I'll punish myself before God does

I'll punish myself before God does

Now I can't see my own face

It's blinded by the shame

Would you call my name?

Now you tell me everything

Is gonna be okay

Would you call my name?

Would you call my name

Or cast me to the flame?

God may forgive me, but I won't

Turn to face my fears this time

God may forgive me, but I won't

This suffering will end