Dead Ends

I needed you to love me, like I loved you

chalkline association needed to pull me through

half sunk you watch me struggle laughing as you went down

so scared of your position that you sat and let me drown

was just my depression feeling at home with you

things born of obsession never quite ring true

stripped me down defenseless

wondering who I am

left me fucking senseless

empty and empty

Mind numb I sit and listen as you ramble on

obsessed with what I'm missing

asleep while life moves on

faint voice steals attention

tells me to try once more

punch drunk you keep on talking

as I head for the door

and when I'm down inside I feel like I am safe

beside you and with you I can hide beneath the tide

away from burden

and you will shut my eyes

suck me dry of all my feeling

watch me solidify to pacify

your fear of failure