Chutes and Ladders

Just when I thought

That my truth erased confusion

Thats when I asked myself

What's real and what's illusion

I can't believe that when I close my eyes

All I want will come to me so

Im gonna look inside myself

And see what I dont want to see

I dont know how things should be

I dont know what you want from me

I cant justify what you cant see

Cause you cant see inside of me

And I dont want identity

All I wants consistency

Just when I thought

That my truth erased confusion

Thats when I asked myself

What's real and what's illusion

They said lifes a game

All full of chutes and ladders

Then its not if I win

But how I play that matters right

I dont know how this should be

I dont know what you want from me

I cant justify what you cant see

Cause you cant see inside of me

And I dont want identity

All I wants consistency

Open my eyes for the first time

And make my own decisions

Start feeling all I see

And feel emotion revision

And all above I just need some time

Between me and my heart

Between me and my mind

Some time to get things straight

Before I close my eyes and sead my fate