Eunoia

​[Verse 1]

I bet you know what it feels like when you realize you've grown up

Gotta see why, trying to find home as an incline

Need a reminder that I'll be fine

Sleep deprived, I don't eat right

When you text me, I never reply

I'm a daydream stuck in real life (yeah)

Everyone changes, I'm not the same as a kid that was 18

I'm losing my strength and it, feels like I'm way down

Nervous and anxious, my words can be dangerous

Can somebody help me just, tell me you love me

Tell me I'm beautiful when I feel ugly

Show me life isn't all about money

Tired of talkin' to people who want something from me but outside that I'ma nothing

Wait, wait, wait

Give, give, give

Take, take, take

I need a breath

I suffocate under the pressure from people expecting the best, hush

Told myself I'd be relentless

The truth is I did it to fit in

I needed some friends, but I fed up so much I don't know what's real or pretend anymore

You look at me with those eyes

Like I'm a famous kid on the rise

What it's really like is, walkin' on a tightrope while I'm blindfolded

But I hope that one day a time comes I'll be right over when you need me

But I'm holding in the feeling of some kind of disbelief that my life doesn't got a meaning

So the idea of me leaving crawls right back and it's keeping me, hostage

While it hijacks where I'm peaceful but I act like it's easy

So if I snap I don't mean to

Put the light back on the people who are unloved

Look I see you and if my raps could have reached you

Then my dreams would have come true

I was 14 at a prep-rally and the principal thought he was so cool

Made a joke of me in front of the whole school for humiliated then I did what you told me don't do

Bringing hope for the ones who go through the emotions of what if feels like when nobody ever knows you

I've been, insecure about a lot of things

And then when I get hurt I go bottle it

People only see a part of me

I'm sorry I'm not really what you thought I was

There's no one here to tell you who to be

And lately, I've been trying to find the irony of where my life is headed

And now my mind is spinning, feeling tired and I end up spiraling

I get anxiety, I feel like everybody's always eyeing me

I'm not okay but yeah, okay I'm good at hiding it

I'll probably lie in bed then remind myself when I was younger no one tried inviting me to party's they knew I would die to be at

So no wonder I think I gotta climb up and go higher than I ever been

No one knows what my world is like

Broken hearts filled with sacrifices

I just feel like I have to try

Bring me, love, bring me faith, give me hope, and then

Let me go, hold me close, take me home again

Make me seem like I'm free feeling low they don't know what I mean

Please don't leave me alone because

I need you more than you need me

I'm no hero, when I get weak will you be my strength so that I believe

And when life's unclear you are all I see because

I need you more than you need me

I'm no hero, when I get weak will you be my strength so that I believe, I believe

Build up a legacy be what I'm meant to be

God has been telling me, jump off a cliff

Imma pray at the edge of it

Never been hesitant

Do what I wanna

Imma step on the neck of depression

No, I'm not the one that'll crack under pressure when weight becomes heavy

Better be what I said cause if I never do I'll look back and regret it

Self-esteem is drowning

​My ego is loud but the love that surrounds me is the one thing that I'm bound to and I'm proud of you

So don't compare me to CLOUDS when this whole thing's got me grounded

I don't want no crown cause I'm happy I found you