Leap Year

At 19

I didn't think I'd make it to 23,

but I'm happy to be here

Welcome back from the dark side

Tried and tested by successions of hard times

Take a deep breath,

this isn't over yet

Air out the carbon monoxide

There's a voice in the back of my head and it's deafening

All my friends hate my guts, feel the weight of everything

Bearing down on my shoulders

Down on my shoulders

I see

my past self standing in front of me

It's back like a leap year

At 19

I didn't think I'd make it to 23,

but I'm happy to be here

I think I saw you in a past life

Enamored of the glow from the gas light

In a younger skin,

you dug your fingers in

I walked away on the last night

Feeling drained, looking up at the best that's ahead of me

Hold it down, power through, live to spite my enemies

You wanna see me crumble

You wanna see me crumble,

dead on arrival

but I won't

give you that satisfaction

Everything crashing over me

nowadays feels so weightless

The context is sobering

You can't take that away from me.