Bugbear

Being in this space has made me feel

A bit more small and I'm not quite sure

Where I'm going next

I'll try to use a map but

With directions, I tend to be bad so

I'll use GPS and pray for the best

I've got so many years to flesh this out

And be what I wanna be

But it's confusing to say the least

No perception of time or space or distance or weight

And I think I'm going insane

Doomed to graduate and remain a beast

And oh, oh, I just want you to know

I feel so brain dead next to you

It's not like you intended to

Hurt me or make me feel that way

And I'm not trying to complain

But it just sucks to try and explain

Why I feel like this everyday

Sleeping through your days and skipping meals

Must sound so unappealing

But I guess it's different when it's the norm

Sinking deeper into whatever this is

Without a hint of reflection

Can't tell if this is the calm or this is the storm

Giving everything I've got

Equates to about a shower and waking up late

Faced with anything I tend to flee

So when I'm thrown into the adult world

Where they do things that I never learned how to do

I guess I'll live in a swamp or a tree

And oh, oh, I just hope that you all know

I feel so brain dead next to you

It's not like you intended to

Hurt me or make me feel this way

And I'm not trying to complain

But it just sucks to try and explain

Why I feel like this everyday

My brain is surrounded by school kids who all got their valedictorian cords

While I couldn't care enough about my 3.8

No matter how hard I try

I'm still not trying hard enough to be great