October

I go on walks ‘cause there’s nothing better to do

Reading closed captions with the TV on mute

I call my friends but they’re asleep; I should be too

sometimes, I miss the old days, when we’d talk until we got confused

Watch the night fall

watch me fall apart

Oh my god

I can’t do this anymore

October found me picking scabs and feeling dangerous

I woke up with a heavy head in the Eastwood basement

feeling less like a man of god the more my mother says it,

Last night I spoke so freely of some things I’m scared that I meant

Watch the night fall

watch me fall apart

oh my god,

I can’t do this anymore

Punished by the sunshine, I knew that I knew much better

I was loosing sight of tomorrow in a heart throb of hard liquor

My father’s on the table saying, son, I wish we were closer

I never know what to say to him, but goddamn that hit too hard

Watch the night fall

watch me fall apart

oh my god,

I can’t do this anymore