Looking Back

Face this

Like water, never taste this

Evil, white rose to a racist

They used to hype

'Cause my mother's face was white

And my fathers face blacker than

The scene outside the space ship

Flooded with rocks and jewels

Crystal shine and shimmer

He never let me use their words

Due time my jigga

Never called me ****

Said it's the master's tongue

But being black and white

There trouble never asked for none

But they all passed me some

Fuck it, I grabbed it

Both hands int he darkest sun

Scribbled till the parker's done

Grabbed another pen

And scribbled where the parker's spun

Followin' in footsteps of fathers that were asked to run

But not the one who wanted out so they disappear

All caught up in the fam and feelin' like they interfere

I'm thinkin' that my great grandfather

Could've owned my other one

And yo, that shit is weird

I'm lost (I am)

Wonderin' my cost (I am)

Tell it you were hurt (I am)

If you don't know your worth (That's it)

So we run form the maker, like sons in Jamaica

Heartbreak, breaker like the sun's an equator

We wasted it (Uh), before we even tasted it

Cities on fire

Uh, quite literally

The reason nobody's talkin' remains a mystery

My brother's lost, tellin' him do it differently

I wanna take the blame but we don't share the same history

I'm lost

Wonder my cost up in this place

Mixed race, colour of my face.

Feelin' misplaced

A waste

Ain't tryna tell you how my shit taste

Pack a couple days in this thin case, make a move

And write every day and night till I say the truth

Lose lookin' for some proof that I'm still in the news

You see, I got it all to lose, nothin' to prove

Promise the day I get paid, I'ma pay my dues

Uh, find the karma

Told me I'm from Ghana but really its Guyana

Uh, I'm Coyle Larner to Carner

The birth place of my father's father

I don't know the answer

I'm lost

Wonderin' my cost

Telling you it hurts

Uh, if you don't know your worth

Uh, and so we run from the maker, like sons in Jamaica

Heart bait, breaker in the dirt, whatever

Wasted it, before we even tasted it

Fuck