Moment of Silence (feat. Josh Woods)

What if I told you that I didn't feel good enough and I'm broken?

What if I said that I'm losin' my faith and been strugglin' copin'

Been stuck for a while

When I look at the clock, man, I feel like it's frozen

Then again, time is just flyin' too quick

And I'm losin' devotion

Truth is, I feel no emotion

Bottled it up, and all I feel is rage

And I would be lyin' if I looked at you and said I'm not afraid

What if I never get through this shit?

What do I do if I can't find my way

And I know that my father has been countin' on me to carry our name

Speakin' to him, and I gotta be honest

We ain't really speakin' these days

I've been scared that I won't get to know him

Before the day he fades away

My family fought a lot when I was growin' up

What can I say? (What can I say?)

What can I say?

By fightin', there really ain't nothing to gain

I know that the sun is out there somewhere

But I've been livin' in rain

Can we quit playin' games?

I'm standin' right here, and I'm ready to change

And, Mama, I promise to give you the world if I make it to fame

Put you both on a stage

And make it so everyone's screamin' your name

It's times like this, I see your face

Wish you didn't leave this place

Searchin' for the reason why

So take a moment of silence, goodbye

Give me a second

I wanna say something to my little brother

When you get older, your father is not gonna be with your mother

I'm twenty-three years older than you

I know that it's kinda confusin'

Forget all the bullies that make fun of you

It's just for their amusement

Let go of negative, seek out the light

Develop yourself, you should journal and write

Speak with integrity, treat women right

And you don't gotta drink every typical night

Bein' popular really ain't everything

Nah, don't give into that hype

And it's okay to forgive the people that hurt you

But don't give it twice

And to each of my sisters

I know we been drifted, our parents divorced

We all moved away, and the family shifted

Yeah, we visit on Christmas

But even the holidays' different

Got to make something out of this gift

That God has graciously gifted

I know that the sun is out there somewhere

But I've been livin' in rain

Can we quit playin' games?

I'm standin' right here, and I'm ready to change

And, Mama, I promise to give you the world if I make it to fame

Put you both on a stage

And make it so everyone's screamin' your name

It's times like this, I see your face

I wish you didn't leave this place

Searchin' for the reason why

So take a moment of silence, goodbye

Give me a second

I owe an apology to a few people

I regret a few things

And I made some mistakes when I gave into evil

To all of my exes, I'm sorry, I know I was often deceitful

But after Veronica cheated

I gave up and didn't treat future girls equal

I'm sorry to all that I pushed away

When I fell deep in depression

I never gave enough attention to people

I love, so I just started ruinin' friendships

I guess that I've taken the easy way out by rappin' confessions

This is a passion of mine

And the only way that I can deal with my stresses

And I get emotional every time I stop and think about Taylor

Still can't believe that you took your own life away

Just to get rid of these haters

I just hope you found some peace and serenity in your decision

No one knew what you were goin' through

Then again, maybe we just didn't listen

To my granny, I wish that I said goodbye

Before the day that you left

Not tellin' you how much I love you

Is something that I still regret

But I know you're in Heaven, and that it's all okay

One day I'll be with you

And all of my fans will be screamin' my name

This song is dedicated to Taylor Eller

We love you, and may you rest in peace