This Wild Darkness (Loaded Remix)

apportioned like madness in season

bracing all like a breaking of reason

with every night lost, and every day torn

with a drama feeling calmer it's a comma in the storm

speakers are crying like a forest in the rain

i was so alone with my thoughts and my pain

and the darkness closed like a mouth on a wire

and night, i'll never be free

in this darkness, please light my way

i can't stand on my own anymore

i can't stand in the stain of the broken and poor

i can't break what i held, and it never was true

in the mirror what i said was a lie to you

and me and everything i see and everything i could

i tried so hard to be good

for myself for you for the hidden and divine

for everything

but i can fail just so many times

in this darkness, please light my way

i can't stop when i feel like stopping

at 5 a.m just cry shoot copping

the perfect life was enough for you

but never enough to see my through

for all the lies that were spoken in ways

and the way we lived was an affront to the days

it was an affront to the things we cared about

an affront to everything we cared about.

in this darkness, please light my way