Hard 2 Love

It's like, you think you know me, but you don't really know me One day you gon' wake up and figure that out And when that day comes, I'm thinkin' you gon' leave Now, I don't know how long my forever's gon' be But I invite you to come and spend mine with me And I'ma do my best to see that we live happily And you just keep what's left when something happens to me I'm lookin' for someone to marry me, take care of me and bury me These days that's a rarity, but I can guarantee If I broadcast live from deep within me God'll send me someone, only divinity Could ever get the credit for And I can take her from the hood to the Gucci store God gave her a O.G. for a daddy, bad broad for a mama From tank tops and thongs to them Prada pajamas And I'ma be awake when I'm 'posed to be asleep 'Cause my mind's on my money, and I'm knowin' I'ma I reap What I sow, I'm a beast who should be heavily medicated, huh? That's their opinion, to me, I'm just dedicated Motivated by the thoughts of empty mouths Nightmares of comin' home to a empty house I know what it is to seek somethin', fail Titanicly Built a castle and watched it collapse in front of me My daughter, she survived the tragedy The aftermath of my attempt at a family So don't sit up here and talk about what I already know Or sit up here and act as though you would never go Like you would never ever pack your bags and leave I'm not comparin' you to her, it's a reaction to me People take all they can take and I just run 'em away Even I can't believe some of the stuff that I say The holes in the walls can easily be fixed with mud The holes in us can only be repaired with love And they can only be mended, they can never be fixed Because people forgive you, but they can never forget I'm hard to love, some say I'm hard to like But I've been through a lot of things, and I'm scarred for life I got bruises on my spirit, dents in my chin And I'm never lettin' anybody get me again I'm hard to love, some say I'm hard to like But I've been through a lot of things, and I'm scarred for life I got bruises on my spirit, dents in my chin And I'm never lettin' anybody get me again Now if you've never been in love, it's irrelevant to you If you ever prayed for me, then I'ma pray for you too Baby girl, I'm tryin' see all of your dreams real So try to understand how my size fourteens feel I need another female like a hole in the head If I ever caught you cheatin', it'd be holes in the bed Holes in the head of a man caught up in the middle Of a good thin' gone bad, I ain't sorry for the-, mm-mm I could never envision you betrayin' me The one you don't suspect, that's the one it's gon' be No trust other than my trust in God 'Cause everyone I ever trusted has broke my heart I keep my guard up, and it could never be lowered And you could never sucker punch me, I'm forever lookin' for it You go through the bad just to get to the good Somethin' I wish more people understood I'm hard to love, some say I'm hard to like But I've been through a lot of things, and I'm scarred for life I got bruises on my spirit, dents in my chin And I'm never lettin' anybody get me again I'm hard to love, some say I'm hard to like But I've been through a lot of things, and I'm scarred for life I got bruises on my spirit, dents in my chin And I'm never lettin' anybody get me again You ever see two old people walkin' in the rain One of 'em got the body and the other got the brain? Dang, they probably got grandkids my age People don't love like that these days They too quick to say forget it, turn away and leave it To the point of where their love is nothin' but a image Lights and smoke, two-way mirrors So the people on the outside don't see errors 'Til you can no longer create the facade And you done talked to everybody about it, but God She gon' make mistakes, but so will you You shouldn't say nothin' that you wouldn't want her to Say to you if you was in the spot she's in Love makes exception and takes direction Baby girl, just hold me down for now Before you know it, you'll be married to a hole in the ground I'm hard to love, some say I'm hard to like But I've been through a lot of things, and I'm scarred for life I got bruises on my spirit, dents in my chin And I'm never lettin' anybody get me again I'm hard to love, some say I'm hard to like But I've been through a lot of things, and I'm scarred for life I got bruises on my spirit, dents in my chin And I'm never lettin' anybody get me again I'm hard to love I'm hard to love