Drug Addiction

Colicchie

(Colicchie)

You see everybody got a story to tell

(Story to tell)

Well here's mine

(Well here's mine)

My pain's deep, I have been through hell

(Been through hell)

I managed to survive so I got a story to tell

Listen, I stand victorious

Make the sign of the cross

Look I'm here to be the voice for every friend I ever lost

(Ever lost)

Let me pray as I put together my hands

I've never been ashamed to tell you the person I am

When it comes to doing drugs, I have never been a rookie

But hold up, let me tell you about the places that they took me

(Took me)

I haven't showered, it's been possibly a week

And I'm so deep in a psychosis, impossible to speak

The coke is in my arm, now it's impossible to sleep

My throat's numb, closed shut, so it's impossible to eat

(Impossible to eat)

Losin' weight's a part of my daily routine

I always use against my will, just prayin' I was clean

(Prayin' I was clean)

So nod your head if you understand what I mean

When I was growin' up I never thought that I would be a fiend, ever

My life's tumultuous, it's never gettin' better

Another abscess from my arm is gettin' severed

(Gettin' severed)

My exquisite vision, depiction of dereliction

Livid livin' conditions, malicious on a mission

All these Green Tree cops, look they all know me by my first name

Paramedics had to revive me this ain't a game

I worn the same clothes for like the last ten days

And look I want to do better but I don't know a different way

(Different way)

Completely all alone, I'm sittin' in this room

I empty out the bags, brown liquid in the spoon

I have to do a lot, can no longer do a little

The water's been added, I place the cotton in the middle

(Cotton in the middle)

I'm suckin' every drop up into this plastic device

As I am tyin' off, I'm tryin' to find a decent vein to strike

I shove it ever so gently up underneath my skin

As I am pullin' back the plunger 'til there's blood in the syringe

(Blood in the syringe)

I push it in and try to drift away to heaven

But criminals like me that's never the place that we're headed

The guilt, shame, remorse and regret I never address

And I'm a mess from all this pain and this anguish

I'm filled with stress, overdoses, I'm emotionally broken, this ain't a joke

(Ain't a joke)

I'm smokin' on a Newport, I never have any hope

(Never have any hope)

This is me, I'm feelin' like I don't deserve more

I feel disgusted as I'm pushin' on this burnt chore

Someone stole the vinegar in the midst of a black out

Another shootin' gallery, another crack house

(Crack house)

On the porch ''Welcome To Hell'' is on the floor mat

I'm glancin' at my arms and all I ever see is sore tracks

I'm feelin' filthy dirty needles with the orange cap

Peekin' out the window, someone whispers, ''Lock the door latch''

We're blastin' off, departing from this mothership

I look around as others search the carpet for another hit

(Another hit)

Crest Whitening Strips and Mach3's

I'm on a suicidal mission 'til these cops try to stop me

We boosted everyday sellin' steaks for half price

Any dream I ever had was shattered by glass pipes

(Glass pipes)

Glass rose, devil got my in his lasso

Entered the gates of hell and I didn't even have a passcode

I'm hard-headed, I will never learn my lesson

(Learn my lesson)

You know the drill, commit a crime, and get arrested

The misery never ends, I spend another week in jail

I don't have friends, family never paid my bail

So I would withdrawal and kick on that concrete floor

(Concrete floor)

I feel like I've had enough but my body is screaming ''MORE''

The food is horrible, but I haven't eaten in days

No reason to call home 'cause I got nothing left to say

(Left to say)

I'm tired of this jail, I don't ever want to see prison

Look I'm tired and exhausted from this life that I am livin'

I would get a couple days clean, and say that I was done

But every time I got released I was back on the run

It's back to thievin', lyin', robbin', and rippin', and runnin'

These problems I don't solve them, I'm crippled and sick to my stomach

(Sick to my stomach)

I hang with prostitutes and these deadly degenerates

I'm homeless for the moment, but that's really quite irrelevant

The only thing that matters in life is my next high

I gotta be willin' to change and give it my best try

(My best try)

I'm a servant and this heroin's my king

I'm feeling like a slave, as I dangle from these puppet strings

I'm just a marionette, I'm staring at death

As I am carryin' regrets that are just tearin' through my flesh

We're dealin' with a topic we're so careless to neglect

We're dealing with a dilemma leaving every parent stressed

I'm so sick and tired though of being sick and tired

But then it finally happened, motivated by desire

(By desire)

I hit this point, I wanted to change, enough is enough

My efforts been exhausted and I'm tired of being stuck

My faith is never blind and my future I barely see

But overnight, was open minded I had this moment of clarity

(Moment of clarity)

So it begins and it's essential I believe

'Cause if it worked for you, then it just has to work for me

(Work for me)

Through all this pain, there's got to be a positive message

I talked about the past, now let's talk about the present

(Talk about the present)

I'm no longer livin' that way, for me it's a blessin'

But with one bad decision I am back in that obsession

In '03 was diagnosed with Hepatitis C

I utilize the bad, it's always been the fuel for drivin' me

And then you ask me,''Why do I give this my all?''

Not tryin' to see ''Rest In peace'' on my Facebook wall

(Facebook wall)

I got clean in '05 and started rappin'

I started touchin' lives, I never thought that this would happen

(This would happen)

This shit today, trust me it isn't heroin

It's killin' everybody and the comments are disparagin'

(Disparagin')

No one cares or gives a fuck that I'm clean

For them another deadly overdose is just somethin' to see

Look, I pay attention to every post that I read

As you are sittin' there, judgin' in front of your iPhone screen

(iPhone screen)

Talkin' about these dying addicts and how they are worthless

And if they put a needle in their arm then they deserve it

But that's someone's mother, someone's uncle, someone's daughter

And that's someone's aunt, someone's son and someone's father

(Someone's father)

As I rap, this shit is givin' me chills

And I am speakin' off experience, that's how I know it's real

These ignorant motherfuckers will say it's not a disease

And look I really don't care, you can believe what you believe

I don't care to argue, I don't got to give you proof

Listen, I was taught you don't got to defend the truth

Incurable, progressive and fatal unless arrested

I'm expressing aggression with every sentiment confession

(Confession)

Once a junkie always a junkie, you're boring me

The last time I checked, there's one ultimate authority

I'm sick of these remarks and opinions from all these critics

'Cause if you never lived it, then trust me you'll never get it

(Never get it)

Be quiet, you're not allowed to speak about it

(Be quiet)

If you've never lived it, then you're not allowed to speak about it

(Speak about it)

How often you forget

The only time that you should ever open your mouth is to eat a dick

(Eat a dick)

Everybody is dyin' it makes me sick

This isn't a epidemic, this is more like an apocalypse

So when I struggle, it's only right that I fight

And my experience recites on how that diamond saved my life

(Saved my life)

Look, you don't got a clue what I've been through

When I was at my worst you couldn't walk a mile in my shoes

I survived a lot, so it's only right that I smile

And I'm aware of my surroundings, I'm no longer in denial

(In denial)

I'm blown away by every message that I get

It gives me motivation, it's the reason I never quit

(Never quit)

We gotta do this together, we must trust

(Must trust)

There's no you, there's no me, there's just us

(Just us)

I'm doin' this with courage, I'm doin' this with pride

I'm doin' this for every single friend that's ever died

I dedicate this song to anyone that's lost a loved one

So live your life 'cause tomorrow may never come

Be grateful for your past, embrace it, don't get embarrassed

Everyday there is more children growin' up without their parents

(Without their parents)

I felt pain, look I'm not afraid to cry

(Afraid to cry)

My life changed once I was willin' to try

I've been given many chances now it's truly do or die

I'm doing what it takes so my daughter will never see me high

(Never see me high, see me high, see me high, see me high)

I'm doing what it takes so my daughter will never see me high

(Never see me high, see me high, see me high, see me high)

I'm doing what it takes so my daughter will never see me high

(Never see me high, see me high, see me high, see me high)

I'm doing what it takes so my daughter will never see me high

(Never see me high, see me high, see me high, see me high)

I'm doing what it takes so my daughter will never see me high

(Never see me high, see me high, see me high, see me high)