Real Now

I've been going through some shit that's getting real now

Yeah, people dying all around me, man

I'm telling you, this shit is getting real now

Yeah, lost my grandma, didn't know it

Can you tell me how that feel now?

Yeah, got a message saying, sorry for your loss

I didn't know if it was real now

Praying that they got the wrong number

Tell me how the fuck I gotta deal now?

I was going through the motions, I was doing all my shit

Turning 20 in the city, I was too focused to quit

Got on FaceTime with my granny and she told me she was proud

One week later she was gone and now she up above the clouds

Never got the chance to tell her that I loved her for her legacy

Everything she did and all she wanted was the best for me

Tell me why the good times always coming with the bad

Never thought I'd see the tears ever coming from my dad

I been on a mission ever since, get it while I can

Everyday I gotta reminisce, thinking 'bout the past

I been killing all these beats, I been shitting on these rappers

I've been praying that I never gotta settle living average

Gotta buy my mom a crib, gotta buy my dad a whip

Gotta buy my bro the world, gotta get it while I live

I don't take no shit for granted 'cause I seen it come and go

I'ma take over the planet, yeah, you fuckers better know

I've been going through some shit that's getting real now

Yeah, people dying all around me, man

I'm telling you, this shit is getting real now

Yeah, lost my grandma, didn't know it

Can you tell me how that feel now?

Yeah, got a message saying, sorry for your loss

I didn't know if it was real now

Praying that they got the wrong number

Tell me how the fuck I gotta deal now?

I been battling these thoughts that been running through my mind

Tryna make my parents proud, taking one step at a time

But nobody understands all the shit that I've been going through

Working on the music while I'm studying in dental school

Thinking 'bout just dropping out and doing what I love

But I can't imagine leaving my whole family in the mud

But they never raised a coward, I'ma finish what I started

I'ma juggle all this shit and keep on working at my hardest

I been going where my heart is, yeah, I know that I'm the smartest

Never thinking 'bout the parties, I been doing what my part is

I been battling the best, I'ma let God do the rest

I'm not getting any rest, working till I got up next

Yeah, I know this shit ain't what it seems, but I know I'm blessed

Every time that life is hard, man, I know that shit a test

They been tryna cut the weak, only made it for the best

I just pray before I sleep and now I get what I request