Anybody Have a Map?

Have you been writing those letters to yourself? "Dear Evan Hansen This is gonna be a good day and here's why" I started one Those letters are important, honey They're gonna help you build your confidence! I guess Can we try to have an optimistic outlook, huh? Can we buck up just enough to see the world won't fall apart? Maybe this year we decide we're not giving up before we've tried This year we make a new start Hey, I know You can go around today and ask the other kids to sign your cast How 'bout that? Perfect I'm proud of you already Oh, good Another stellar conversation for the scrapbook Another stumble as I'm reaching for the right thing to say I'm kinda coming up empty I can't find my way to you Does anybody have a map? Anybody maybe happen to know how the hell to do this? I don't know if you can tell But this is me just pretending to know So where's the map? I need a clue 'Cause the scary truth is I'm flyin' blind I'm making this up as I go It's your senior year, Connor You are not missing the first day I already said I'd go tomorrow He doesn't listen Look at him He's probably high He's definitely high I don't want you going to school high, Connor Perfect, so then I won't go Thanks, mom! Another masterful attempt ends with disaster Interstate's already jammed Pour another cup of coffee And watch it all crash and burn Connor finished the milk! It's a puzzle, it's a maze I've tried to steer through it a million ways But each day is another wrong turn I better head out If Connor's not ready, I'm leaving without him Does anybody have a map? (Anybody have a map?) Anybody maybe happen to know how the hell to do this? I don't know if you can tell But this is me just pretending to know So where's the map? I need a clue 'Cause the scary truth is I'm flyin' blind I'm flyin' blind I'm flyin' blind I'm flyin' I'm flyin' blind And I'm making this up as I go As I go